He is not me

William r, Cummings

Is just a name 

He has never meant anything to me

It's just a mask that I never wanted 

But learned to accept 

     By Logan Wilson 

Music

This is a playlist my good buddy DRAKE made 

https://open.spotify.com/user/logman020/playlist/42hJuggQzMBSUOlJSBpK2n

Heart

My  Heart beats 80 times a minute 

4,800 times and hour  806,400 times a week and 41,932,800 times a year

But yet I don't feel alive 

I feel numb 

There's a hole of sadness that needs love 

But in my small and sad heart 

Love is the one who everybody eles makes fun of 

Love is the one who gets beat after school 

So love Shrinks he shrinks so small that it's hard for him to fill the hole 

He stretches and reaches for the edges of the hole to pull it together 

But he can't 

and every time someone enters my life who helps love up 

heartbreak is there to beat him back down 

I miss love and I need it 

I want love 

I don't know why everyone is so scared of heart attacks when heartbreak is the real bitch 

My heart has beaten 712,857,600 times but I'm still numb 

Fear

I fear spiders 

I fear drugs 

I fear hobos 

I fear needles 

I fear love 

I fear moving on 

And I fear being left in the dust all alone with no one there to catch me when I fall 

No I don't fear love because love is a wonderful thing and when ur in love you feel complete! I fear falling out of love I fear the heartbreak I fear the deep dark empty feeling in ur gut that just makes u just want to give up 

I fear life  I fear because life doesn't give a shit if ur heart is broken life doesn't stop and the world doesn't stop spinning if ur so hurt that u can't even get up out of bed in the morning, life just goes on and u don't want to get left behind, so u get up out of bed and try to move on you  try to grow up because grown ups have but I fear growing up I'm not ready to look at a paper clip and only see one purpose I want to stay young I want to look at a paper clip and see all the 25 purposes that Carter j Pratt saw!

Instructions

Right now I'm standing on a rock that the city made so people could look out and see all the things that the city has done for us. The government is positive 

government is lying 

The government is just keeping you in a box it's holding you back, they put all of these nice shinny things in front of you so u don't notice all the crap they are really doing, every one is freaking out about the next president why? Who cares every president that gets in to office and realizes how fuck America and can't do crap!! But how cares as long as we have are shinny things!!

Blue ticket

Start with a breeze 

Start with a small act 

Begin the wind 

Begin fighting for change 

Change is a hard to come by and even harder to achieve 

Change is hope 

Hope is a sign of Change of moving  on of freedom 

If hope is there than there is a chance of Change 

P.s. my word was breeze!

Alive

DEAR sophomore girl -ur perfect  and pretty but some people say your to young 

DEAR some people- you have no wright to say anything 

DEAR girlfriend I almost had -it almost worked but I never thought about you while not with you

DEAR friends girlfriend-your nice but I'm worried

DEAR hall couple who hold their hugs for way to long -just stop it's vary awkward for every one

 DEAR creative writing vergin- it gets easier I promise 

DEAR lost friend- I now ur there and I hope u come back 

DEAR talented people- teach me some stuff so I can impress the girl I will never get!

DEAR girl I'll never get- I hope u know my name

DEAR mission-I'm coming for, I'm not giving up I'm just taking a break

DEAR Mormons- there's way to much judgement coming from u

DEAR new lost friend- I try to hold on but the rope is getting thinner I think u are cutting it

DEAR all friends- I love u more than u can comprehend

DEAR 6th grade teacher- I didn't drop out like u said I would

DEAR mom don't look under my bed cuz we both know that's were I hide my " clothes" 

DEAR deer my sister hit in my car- how did u get to byu

DEAR guy in my ward who hates long hair- forget u  ur bald so shut  up 

DEAR long hair kids- stay young and be different 

Love

William R. Cummings

   Love-An intense feeling of attraction needing and wanting to be with some one and pushing to be with them

Rosemary edghill

   Love-Putting someone else's needs before your own 

Dr.Drake17

   Love-Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. 

Jensen

   Love-Love is that indescribable warmth you feel when you know you are cared for

Dr. Dick Hickory 

    Love-A one way emotion of unconditional care.

Sean

   Love-An abiding affection tenderness or warmth for someone.

Urban dictionary 

    Love-Natures way of tricking people in to reproducing. 

Addy

   Love-a feeling towards someone where you would do anything for them.

Bonecrusher 

   Love-When you put someone else's wants and needs above your own.

Mrs. Jaynes

   Love -is vulnerably love is pain love is unimaginable joy love is worth every heartache. 

Iris sheles

   Love-Before during and after rain storms 

#different

Living at home, sitting in a happy but yet sad house, their is a family there, perfect little family of 6 plus a dog. The kids are perfect the parents are successful and happy, but yet there's that one kid who stands out, not in appearance but in every other way, He is outgoing and happy but yet sad because no one really understands this young man. He is left out, trap between two groups and not sure witch path to take. Struggling to just stay above the water, but slowly drowning. On the surface he seems like he's flys above the clouds but inside he is sinking deep below the surface, as time goes on he is sitting in his house witch is nothing but a sad meaningless building, but who wants to be the same, why not stand out and go against the grain, leave the clicks make your own path! Don't just stroll through life like a robot doing all these meaningless things,just because people say that's what's good for you. Just live you life go against the grain. Be different 

Crayons

Red Blue Yellow. These are the colors that merge together to create all other colors, but Red Blue Yellow. These are the colors that determine your future, Red Blue Yellow. These are the colors that determine your life, Red Blue Yellow. These are the colors that stand for what you think they stand for, Red Blue Yellow. Every ones colors are different You choose what ur colors are and how they define you, Red Blue Yellow.Find your own colors, Red Blue Yellow. There are particular people who rob the ideals of another person, and will never learn how to stand on there own, Red Blue Yellow. Find your own colors, Don't just live off others ideals, Red Blue Yellow. These are the colors that begin all other things!

Edge

I could have been rich

I could have been popular 

I could have been smart

I could have been happy

But instead, I'm standing here contemplating something that should never be contemplated standing near the edge! Now Step over the  edge

Time slows down every thing fades to darkness, a large dark abyss begins to grow, light dissipate feelings of anger regret and sadness overwhelm me but

The only thoughts going through my head, are thoughts of what could have been!

I could have been rich 

I could have been popular 

I could have been happy 

Darkness

Darkness is pain.

Darkness is hate.

Darkness is jealously. 

Darkness is tragedy pleuge famine war death.

Darkness is suicide.

But yet we focus on the darkness.

The darkness is there.

It's every where we look.

so we must stop looking at pain and hate and focus on the light.

Look at the light.

because Light is joy.

Light is happiness, 

Light is looking at a picture of Christ knowing he is there and he loves you 

Light is being with friends and family and feeling there love 

Light is knowing that U are loved 

And u are needed

~William R. Cummings